Tag Archives: Childless Women
The many faces of grief
This morning, I swam towards the sun along a shimmering pathway of light. With every stroke, I reached for the distant yellow ball, before pausing to lie on my back and take in the blueness of the sky. The sea … Continue reading
The courage to grieve
It takes huge courage to grieve – to grieve the death of a loved one, the end of a relationship, the absence of children, the loss of our health or the loss of the life we thought we’d have. It’s … Continue reading
The day my mother died
When my phone rang on January 13th, I hoped against hope that it was my alarm waking me up, although I knew, deep down, that it was the middle of the night. That could only mean one thing: Mum had … Continue reading
Lonely in lockdown? You’re not alone
Loneliness. Aloneness. Isolation. Lockdown. These words are roaming around my mind right now, prompting my fingers to search out letters on the keyboard. I don’t know in what order to put the words. I don’t know where this blog will … Continue reading
The life that hasn’t gone to plan
I’ve just spent a long weekend in the company of nine wonderful women whose lives, like mine, haven’t gone to plan. These women, attendees on my How to Fall in Love retreat, had expected things to work out differently. Some … Continue reading
How do I know if I want kids or not?
OK, so you might be wondering why I’m asking this question. You might be thinking: haven’t we been through this already? Haven’t we covered this topic from all angles and in all forms of media since this blog launched back … Continue reading
Ageing disgracefully
I’ve just put my dear Mum on the train in Bournemouth, destination North Wales. As I sat her down and made sure she was comfortable and that she knew where her coat and case were, and as I asked a … Continue reading
Choosing hope
Yesterday, I felt my life was meaningless because I didn’t have children. That feeling doesn’t hit me very often. And it hasn’t hit me for a while. As you’ll have read on this blog, my life has been changing in … Continue reading
When everything feels wrong
There are days when everything feels wrong. Days when you feel so far away from the robust, strong, healthy, confident, dynamic go-getting person you want to be and sometimes are. Days when you wonder where your enthusiasm for life, for … Continue reading
It all started here
‘Maybe No Baby’ is the headline of a feature I wrote for The Sunday Times today on infertility and childlessness, particularly among women of my generation, late 30s, early 40s, and the difficulties of meeting eligible partners. It’s on page … Continue reading
From Forty With Love 