Category Archives: Love
This is how we heal
I often refer to it as walking towards the fire. It’s when we go towards situations that scarred us in the past. It’s when we take a chance and risk being triggered. It’s when we put ourselves in the line … Continue reading
The danger of ‘if only’ thinking
I spent a lot of my childhood peering through other people’s windows, both literally and metaphorically, wishing that my life was more like theirs. Wishing I lived in their house. Wishing I had their parents. Wishing I had their clothes. … Continue reading
The regrets of the living
I held by breath and dived down to retrieve a shell from the seabed, watching the sand cloud around my fingers. It was an unremarkable shell, yet remarkable all the same – remarkable for the journey of formation it had … Continue reading
How Coronavirus taught me to be still
After years of rushing, racing and running, coronavirus has forced me to slow down. It’s like I have a brake in the middle of my chest. As soon as I start to rush or hurry, or as soon as I … Continue reading
Lonely in lockdown? You’re not alone
Loneliness. Aloneness. Isolation. Lockdown. These words are roaming around my mind right now, prompting my fingers to search out letters on the keyboard. I don’t know in what order to put the words. I don’t know where this blog will … Continue reading
How do I know if I want kids or not?
OK, so you might be wondering why I’m asking this question. You might be thinking: haven’t we been through this already? Haven’t we covered this topic from all angles and in all forms of media since this blog launched back … Continue reading
The bittersweet road of recovery
Whenever I get well again after being ill, I realise just how unwell I’ve been. You’d think I’d be used to this by now, but it surprises me every time. When I’m ill, I don’t actually believe I’m ill, not … Continue reading
Facing our deepest fears
I began writing this post back in May, when the feelings I describe in it were close to the surface, so close that they spilled out onto the page, or the computer screen, at great speed. But I then got … Continue reading
Just married!
Our wedding day. What a day. What a spectacular, phenomenal day. What a momentous, miraculous milestone on my journey back to myself, on my journey to love, on my journey to the heart. A journey that began almost two decades … Continue reading
Ambivalence and commitment
This morning, I sat outside the beach hut, looked out at the vast expanse of sea before me and cried. I cried because I’d just had a massive adrenaline come-down after writing a deeply personal article on ambivalence about motherhood … Continue reading
From Forty With Love 