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Ambivalence and commitment

This morning, I sat outside the beach hut, looked out at the vast expanse of sea before me and cried. I cried because I’d just had a massive adrenaline come-down after writing a deeply personal article on ambivalence about motherhood … Continue reading

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V for Valentine’s, V for Victory

“The best moments in our lives, are not the passive, receptive, relaxing times – although such experiences can also be enjoyable, if we have worked hard to attain them. The best moments usually occur when a person’s body or mind … Continue reading

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Yin and Yang

“What’s it like to be loved by me?” I asked last night, kind of joking. “Intense,” he said with a laugh. “Intense?” I replied, in quite a high pitch. “Intense?” But I couldn’t help laughing along with him. “Intense isn’t … Continue reading

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Becoming more whole

I’m so grateful for the sound of the sea this morning and for the band of bright sunlight on the horizon. And I’m grateful for the cold breeze and the wet sand. My walk on the beach just now lifted … Continue reading

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How I fell in love

It began with me – with falling in love with myself. I know that’s a cliché, that you’ve heard it before, read it in some glossy women’s magazine. But that’s where I had to start. I really couldn’t accept and … Continue reading

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Dread

I can remember it vividly. I left the gym at Belvedere’s, my senior school in Liverpool, and walked past the netball courts and out onto the street, where Mum was sitting in the car waiting for me. I was sobbing … Continue reading

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Choosing change

I went for a swim in the sea this morning, in my new wetsuit, cosy swimming socks, neoprene gloves and cap. And I wasn’t even cold. On the way down to the beach, I had one of those ‘I think … Continue reading

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