Tag Archives: commitment

Ambivalence and commitment

Posted on April 30, 2019 by

This morning, I sat outside the beach hut, looked out at the vast expanse of sea before me and cried. I cried because I’d just had a massive adrenaline come-down after writing a deeply personal article on ambivalence about motherhood … Continue reading →

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V for Valentine’s, V for Victory

Posted on February 15, 2017 by

“The best moments in our lives, are not the passive, receptive, relaxing times – although such experiences can also be enjoyable, if we have worked hard to attain them. The best moments usually occur when a person’s body or mind … Continue reading →

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Yin and Yang

Posted on January 14, 2017 by

“What’s it like to be loved by me?” I asked last night, kind of joking. “Intense,” he said with a laugh. “Intense?” I replied, in quite a high pitch. “Intense?” But I couldn’t help laughing along with him. “Intense isn’t … Continue reading →

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Becoming more whole

Posted on January 6, 2017 by

I’m so grateful for the sound of the sea this morning and for the band of bright sunlight on the horizon. And I’m grateful for the cold breeze and the wet sand. My walk on the beach just now lifted … Continue reading →

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How I fell in love

Posted on October 13, 2016 by

It began with me – with falling in love with myself. I know that’s a cliché, that you’ve heard it before, read it in some glossy women’s magazine. But that’s where I had to start. I really couldn’t accept and … Continue reading →

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Dread

Posted on March 30, 2016 by

I can remember it vividly. I left the gym at Belvedere’s, my senior school in Liverpool, and walked past the netball courts and out onto the street, where Mum was sitting in the car waiting for me. I was sobbing … Continue reading →

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Choosing change

Posted on March 23, 2016 by

I went for a swim in the sea this morning, in my new wetsuit, cosy swimming socks, neoprene gloves and cap. And I wasn’t even cold. On the way down to the beach, I had one of those ‘I think … Continue reading →

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Love is …

Posted on January 8, 2016 by

I wrote a first draft of this blog post a few months ago. I woke up one morning and felt moved to tell you all how much I love my boyfriend (OK, so I think I’m going to have to … Continue reading →

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A life that matters

Posted on August 19, 2013 by

What would you do if you believed your life really mattered? I asked myself this the other day while sat on a striped deckchair outside Foyles bookshop on London’s vibrant South Bank. It was early evening and I’d nipped into … Continue reading →

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Ambivalence

Posted on July 23, 2013 by

It’s been so long since I’ve posted on this blog that I almost feel I’ve lost my nerve, lost my ability to write my truth. Maybe the act of writing one’s truth is like a muscle. The more you use … Continue reading →

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