Category Archives: Childless
Festive feelings
It’s not all snowflakes and tinsel, jingle bells and ho, ho, ho. It’s not all jolly times and happy memories. Christmas has the ability to remind us of Christmases past and perhaps, for some of us, Christmas hasn’t always been … Continue reading
Ageing disgracefully
I’ve just put my dear Mum on the train in Bournemouth, destination North Wales. As I sat her down and made sure she was comfortable and that she knew where her coat and case were, and as I asked a … Continue reading
Being real
I’ve brought the wrong speech, I thought, as I stared at the four pages of A4 in front of me and looked up at the audience. I’ve definitely brought the wrong speech. What now? I’d written nearly 3,000 words on … Continue reading
Choosing hope
Yesterday, I felt my life was meaningless because I didn’t have children. That feeling doesn’t hit me very often. And it hasn’t hit me for a while. As you’ll have read on this blog, my life has been changing in … Continue reading
Becoming whole
This blog post, like me, is a work in progress. But I’m going to post it anyway. In fact, I’m going to write it in half an hour and post it immediately, so I have time for lunch, to get … Continue reading
Love is …
I wrote a first draft of this blog post a few months ago. I woke up one morning and felt moved to tell you all how much I love my boyfriend (OK, so I think I’m going to have to … Continue reading
From fantasy to reality
I’ve been living in a fantasy world. A world in which this blog or my half-written book gets discovered, I get offered a big-bucks publishing deal and someone else writes the book for me or holds my hand every step … Continue reading
Extreme self-care
A few Fridays ago, I took my first anti-depressant, just half the dose my doctor had prescribed. On the Saturday, I took the remainder of the scored pill I’d sliced in half the day before. Then on the Sunday, I … Continue reading
When everything feels wrong
There are days when everything feels wrong. Days when you feel so far away from the robust, strong, healthy, confident, dynamic go-getting person you want to be and sometimes are. Days when you wonder where your enthusiasm for life, for … Continue reading
Baking my way back
It’s been more than three weeks since I’ve posted on this blog and I’m hoping you’ve all been having such a wonderful summer that you haven’t noticed my absence. If you have, you may have been thinking I’ve been having … Continue reading
From Forty With Love 