Tag Archives: Childless
From breakdown to breakthrough
As I prepare to celebrate my 50th birthday on Saturday, I’ve been reflecting on my milestone birthdays to date and the breakdowns and breakthroughs that have accompanied them. On my 10th birthday, I was dealing with feelings that I had … Continue reading
The courage to grieve
It takes huge courage to grieve – to grieve the death of a loved one, the end of a relationship, the absence of children, the loss of our health or the loss of the life we thought we’d have. It’s … Continue reading
The day my mother died
When my phone rang on January 13th, I hoped against hope that it was my alarm waking me up, although I knew, deep down, that it was the middle of the night. That could only mean one thing: Mum had … Continue reading
2021: Your call to adventure
Can you hear it? Can you hear the call to adventure? Can you hear the call to claim your seat at the table. To take up your space. To make your voice heard. To be the person you were always … Continue reading
Your inner child needs you
I was doing some meditation at the beach on Sunday morning – listening to the wonderful Sarah Blondin on Insight Timer (she’s the best!) – and a scene from my childhood meandered into my mind. In this scene, I was … Continue reading
The danger of ‘if only’ thinking
I spent a lot of my childhood peering through other people’s windows, both literally and metaphorically, wishing that my life was more like theirs. Wishing I lived in their house. Wishing I had their parents. Wishing I had their clothes. … Continue reading
Lonely in lockdown? You’re not alone
Loneliness. Aloneness. Isolation. Lockdown. These words are roaming around my mind right now, prompting my fingers to search out letters on the keyboard. I don’t know in what order to put the words. I don’t know where this blog will … Continue reading
The life that hasn’t gone to plan
I’ve just spent a long weekend in the company of nine wonderful women whose lives, like mine, haven’t gone to plan. These women, attendees on my How to Fall in Love retreat, had expected things to work out differently. Some … Continue reading
How do I know if I want kids or not?
OK, so you might be wondering why I’m asking this question. You might be thinking: haven’t we been through this already? Haven’t we covered this topic from all angles and in all forms of media since this blog launched back … Continue reading
Ambivalence and commitment
This morning, I sat outside the beach hut, looked out at the vast expanse of sea before me and cried. I cried because I’d just had a massive adrenaline come-down after writing a deeply personal article on ambivalence about motherhood … Continue reading
From Forty With Love 